Where does the time go? I feel like I just posted my February TBR list yesterday. I said it from the start – my TBR was ambitious. I love reading, and I thought that willpower would get me through. But I did not account for a number of things including:
- Having time to do anything but going to work and coming home and reading.
I’ve known since about mid January that the pace I was reading was not sustainable, but I was having such a great time I didn’t want to stop. When I finished the ACOTAR series all I wanted to do was immediately dive back in and reread books 2 and 3. But I knew that I did not have the time to do that. I had to keep pushing forward and reading books on my list. And then reading became a chore. And then I just stopped reading.
I admit I had a rough week and weekend. Yesterday, after a lot of thought, I decided to throw out the extensive must read TBR list I had and read the books I want to read. With a little under two weeks left in February I plan to read:
- I’ll Be Gone in the Dark by Michelle McNamara (#murdermondaybookclub book – I really want to read this one)
- Magpie Murders by Anthony Horowitz (bookclub# book – my pick- I love this book club. There’s just two of us – we read books and talk about hockey. #LETSGOPENS)
- The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern (bookclub# book – her pick)
- The Silence of the Girls by Pat Barker (#unreadbotmchallenge buddy read – this is my first buddy read and I’m really enjoying the pace – we read a bit ever week then chat – and it crosses a BOTM book off the list!)
I’ve also returned to my old reading habits – reading more than one book at a time. I’ve been reading Silence of the Girls on and off all month – I read the chapters for the discussion and then I put it aside and go back to another book. Last night I indulged one of my favorite guilty pleasures: buy a new book, rush home and dive right in. I’ll Be Gone in the Dark is a tremendous story – and it scared the daylights out of me. It is now my daytime only book. I went back to Magpie Murders so that I would be able to redirect my imagination to fiction and thus actually sleep.
I think I lost sight of why I joined bookstagram and why I started this blog. I love books. I love reading. I love to talk about and share books that I’ve loved (that’s a little legacy my Aunt Mary gave me). With this in mind, I am going to back to the start, diving back into books – and reading by mood. If I want to reread a book, I’m going to reread it. If I want to take a break and watch Hallmark or Hockey or the new football league I’m going to veg out in front of the TV.
I think one of the hardest things to do is learn how to balance your life. Find things you love and do them for the love of the thing. Cross things off your must do to do list. Laugh. Spend time with friends. Eat chocolate. Do the dishes. Make your bed. Binge watch a tv show. Read a good book.
Why am I sharing this? Social Media is a difficult place to navigate. It’s full of “best of” moments. We talk about our highs. We talk about the good things. And we compare ourselves to others. But we are more than just the best bits of ourselves. We are the bad days. And we are the days where we pick ourselves up, and say “I will try again”.